I may come off as unapproachable arrogant asshole to strangers but I’m actually really soft and love the idea of romance.

I may come off as an unapproachable, arrogant asshole to strangers, but… Nah, that’s it. 


Wow now I’m left here reevaluating our friendship if I have to find out who your thing is from a friend I bumped into who saw a post on this girl’s Instagram. Congrats though.

Wow kinda wish I didn’t hear that. Kinda just feel pathetic.

On a completely unrelated note. I’m happy, excited but also a tad bit sad about going to Carleton. I plan to come home every 2 months but I plan to live in Ottawa over the summer break to try and get a job or/and volunteer somewhere. Excited because it’s the beginning of my future but kinda sad because I’m leaving friends and family behind. One month just doesn’t feel like enough time. I also haven’t seen a lot of people in awhile either…

On the internet: Ugh I hate people so much
Applying for a job: I love working with people and I'm very sociable


*puts my ipod on shuffle and skips every song until i get one i was hoping for*


some people’s selfie game is so strong that makes me feel uncomfortable

I have to wake up in 3 hours for school. Fuck me. Ughhh oh well. 3 more days

I was talking to a friend the other day and he was telling me about his situation and It was just kinda relatable. Like the problem with crushing on or liking a girl is that sometimes you have no clue on where you stand with her and you’re just confused on what the hell is happening. I doubt that anything is there between me and her but it’s just nice getting to know someone because why not. Girls are so confusing.

As you may have noticed I am a little odd ball with a Bunch of screwed up thoughts


I may come off as unapproachable arrogant asshole to strangers but I’m actually really soft and love the idea of romance.


I have no regrets with Claudinne because I wouldn’t have dated Alexis. Maybe I would or maybe I wouldn’t, idk. With Alexis I felt like I was able to grow out of my natural controlling habit. I felt like I learned new things in which I could apply to a future relationship. My only regret with Alexis was letting it reach the point where it became routine and mundane. Though I honestly think both sides began questioning their feelings long before we parted ways.

  #personal    #promettre  

Like I don’t get why I compare everyone to you, if in reality it was the shortest relationship I ever had. No it’s not because you’re a smart asian girl who wears glasses nor was it your cold personality. I think it’s because I’m looking for someone who can say no. Someone I can argue with. Someone I can hate but still hope they’re okay. Someone I can trust and be comfortable with. Sure we got closer again last year but we’re still different people with different views, goals, needs and wants. You also liked a friend of mine which kinda made it even more tougher. Even if I things didn’t get shaky again towards grad/prom what it came down to was you haven’t changed much because of that there would’ve been a good chance that the result this time around would be the same as it was the first time. From reflecting from my thoughts I think I’m ultimately looking for someone whose personality can contrast but also compliment mine in a sense, build on our friendship but also be what you never really were, a girlfriend. Though looking back that’s kinda good that you weren’t into that type of shit because guys were never really your priority. I guess I ask and demand for a lot, but it’d be nice to meet someone more compatible.

Also a note. The failure of my 2nd relationship was a result of both parties. I am as much of fault as she was. I’m a self righteous bastard who thought he could change someone to fit his mould of an ideal girlfriend instead of continuously shoving my ideals down her throat. I never really apologized for that. Sorry Claudinne. Those who know me, probably would of figured it out by now.

  #personal    #CN  

Fuck it, I was just gonna leave what I wrote earlier in my drafts but gonna post it and add to it cause why the fuck not. In the words of HIMYM “nothing good happens after 2am” this note is probably a mistake but my life is full of mistakes and I accept that.